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let's looking in on america's perfect family

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The Johngers I just look at their amazing life

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safe secure jobs, social respect

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and admiration?, a growing family, ???

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humanal cars and a good made kitchen

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yes the Johngers are living proof that if we are willing

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to follow the same trusted paths

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what?! how do we ever by end to that myth

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since we have been young we have

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been indacturated to follow a prescribe formuler

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have to get degree

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to get the best job that you can

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the white picked fans

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the big screen tv

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2.5 kids

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the bape, the boat, the box, the job, the 6 figures

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work for 40-50 years and then retire

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I did all of the things that were expected of me

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that the expends my dreams

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every monday i would walk on the beach

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and put my ipod in

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and just wonder what was wrong with me

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I got it like I look up at the beach

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i have a great job, all this money, I'm so lucky right now

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and yet I'm freaking miserable

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and i was on a run 3 to 4 days a week

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and i just remember thinking I didn't sign up to be a single parent

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every single day i would come home and i would tell about --- like

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I cannot do this anymore, I cannot do this, I can't do this anymore

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you climb the ladder and you get to the top and realise you haven't

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against the wrong wall

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i didn't even know what the right wall was

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and I'm 32 and I feel like that I should have that figured out

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people do this kind of quiet desperation they wish things were different

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they need life to shake them and they wake the <b>*</b> up

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this is not the way you have got to live

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there is something better out there

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it's only when you start making choices for yourself

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that you have been lived your own dream

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instead of the american dream

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I ---- but I would not know what it would be like if this happenned

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i don't know what's around the corner for me

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i have never been ?? and not knowing